if things go how we want

sispec's finally over.. once in a lifetime 32k walk is over.. no more pasir ris interchange, TIBS bus, penguin fastcraft, internal ferry, TFT or SFT liao... its gdbye to pulau tekong 4ever.. tanks for giving me so much memories... gdbye to BMTC Falcon n SISPEC Charlie COY... kena posted to nee soon camp.. Sch of Combat Eng Spec Training Wing.. 1st day come in... WAH... course haven start... thot wad so good... MSG still say no nid eat lunch.. u all book out b4 that liao... everyone so happy... kena tua BIG TIME... owned... 2IC juz one word.. "u all bk out for wad?" these words make the whole 03/05 CESC course sian diao totally.. its like end of the world... for the nxt 2 days everyone was so sian n down... esp when we heard that our dear counterparts frm other units bk out liao... so demoralising sia.. then make us spend out time till thurs do nth... rot.. do standbys.. play soccer with OCTs (haha.. my team the onli team which won them.. songs men).. n not forgetting makin us do sai gang (isnt that wad trainees are best at doing? free somemore)thursday came by quite painfully.. considering we had 1 20 min canteen break.. while ARTILLERY CAMP had 2 nights out... then came all the lectures.. ytd lecture today lecture... breakfast lecture lunch lecture dinner lecture... wah.. killing me men... all the notes are making me crazy.. demolition, bangalore torpedo.. igniter 91, i chain,demo blk no3, blah blah blah...dunno why nowadays everytime at night b4 sleep... i feel very sian.. some kind of emptyness within me.. some kind of lonliness.. want to cure it but dunno how also..why things evrytime dun go the way we want?if things go how we want, i would be officer-to-be liao,tekaning ppl..if things go how we want, i would be learning bike course liao..if things go how we want, i book out on monday liao..if things go how we want, i wun be gg out alone everytime on wkends liao..if things go how we want, i wun be so unhappy day in day out liao..if things go how we want, she would be beside me liao..if things go how we want....